Can‘t move on or heal (broke up on good terms)

Hey guys,

I was in Germany for a year seeking for a job but couldn't make it and returned back home. Anyway i met someone there and later on she became my girlfriend for 6 months but because my visa ended, we broke up. Nothing was in our hands. I wished her well with her life. One thing to mention i didn‘t love her as much as she loved me. For instance, we broke once and three days later i dated another girl. Also when we came back again two months before i left, i was texting another girl but not for long. I knew that the relationship wasn‘t going anywhere so i was dating and texting others.

It's been three months since i left. We're still interacting on social media specifically instagram and snapchat, and texting sometimes on whatsapp.

A month ago i felt like i missed her and the memories we had back then, she was not only my girlfriend but she showed me around the city, been to many bars and cafes, travelled to nearby cities together twice. So for me she is the remaining thread of that Germany chapter.

I couldn't hold it so i sent her this on whatsapp:

"I just wanted to say something that's been on my mind lately.

I've been thinking about Germany and that whole chapter of my life, and it made me realize that I miss you sometimes. I miss our memories and the good times we shared.

I'm not saying this because I expect anything or want to make things complicated. I just felt it was honest to say it."

She replied: "Yeah I get it i wanted also to let you know that i met someone and it seems to go well so thats why it may seem that i distance myself. I had it at first as well but i knew i have to move on…"

I replied thank you for telling me and i wish you the best.

The thing is we still sometimes interact from time to time on snapchat for both of us we were in a clinic. I checked on her and when i snapped when i was at a clinic she also checked on me as well.

A week ago she went to Spain with her new boyfriend, she hid me from IG stories yet her account is public so i stalked her from another account. She actually uploaded a story with her boyfriend with a caption "A postcard to the future", of course i was triggered but eventually i got nothing to do and she has the right to move on and find a partner cause she also wanna give birth before 35 since she has some genetic problems for giving birth. She is 30 so am i.

I uploaded a gym story yesterday, she put a like! I'm so pissed off from being a close friend viewer to totally hidden from her stories meanwhile she can see mine. And i'm mature enough to keep her seeing my stories, i won't hide her cause it's a childish thing to do.

I need to move on yet i can't remove or block her because she reminds me of the good days i had in Germany in addition we ended up on good terms that's why. Also i'm still healing from that chapter since my experience there failed in finding a job.

I need advice for what to do and how to heal. Blocking or removing her is the last option for me.