i humiliated myself at my friends birthday

so i have had quite a been going on recently, and it slipped my mind that my friend was inviting us to her show until about a few hours beforehand. i headed to the theatre as fast i could but the only seats they had left were standing room - which is exactly what it sounds like, i'm to stand watching the show unless seats were to open up.

it could've been peripheral stress but i couldn't stop myself from tearing up, just panicking thinking about the pain/discomfort and the possibility of straight up passing out. a few of my other friends managed to get seated and they came by to talk to me. obviously this was jarring to them so they just sorta laughed and went back to their seats - i felt so embarrassed not being able to keep the tears back. eventually i pulled myself together and my friend (the stage manager) had to put aside her pre show work to push the ushers to get me a seat.

in the end i was super thankful (obviously) and did enjoy the show very much! but i can't help but feel like i put a damper on the night. i just wish i didnt have to worry about something as typically inconsequential as standing around watching a show 🫠 c'est la vie i guess...