I Have a Incest Problem

I M19 have struggled with my attraction to every women around me even my family. Maybe this seed/curse began when I was a young boy. Growing up whenever I would find my moms dildo in her bed I would turn it on and put it on my face it was comforting I was to young to know what it was even though it looked like a penis it had veins and a helmet, but it was pink. It wasn’t till I was around \[cant say here\] when I rediscovered it in her drawer I was so excited the thing that used to give me comfort and joy was right here after so long. Then I realized what it was and what I had been putting on my face innocently as a child. I don’t why but I had a rush of thrill I knew I shouldn’t have seen this but I did, I felt my self growing more aroused so I did the same thing I did all those years ago I turned it on rubbed it on my face only this time masturbated when I finished I knew it was wrong and I felt shame so I put it back and felt shame

A year or 2 later I was looking through my moms photos and accidentally saw her naked photos I didn’t mean to but that rush was back like I knew I wasn’t supposed to see this. I found myself feeling really (I don’t know the best words) exited, because it was someone I knew who was naked I secretly and immediately sent my self the photos and masturbated to them for many days I eventually deleted them because I felt ashamed.

I have more lore some crazyer but I have to go to work I’ll try to edit this later