Just a girl struggling to make friends

I just finished my first year of college and i was hoping i would’ve made friends this year, i’m 17 turning 18 shortly and i am so lonely. In year 11 i had to move schools at the very start of the year. my last day at my old school i don’t even remember because i didn’t know it was going to be my last day, i didn’t get to say goodbye to the friends that i did have then or my teachers, in year 8 i was pretty loud and i was just me if that makes sense so i made friends in that year, a girl i was friends with in year ten told me i had become so quiet but i didn’t realise it at that point anyways i moved schools and the environment there was SO different everyone was rude to me except for like 3 people who spoke to me out of pity a couple of times, i was laughed at, a group of guys shouted ew at me on my first day which was definitely just to be mean because i know that i am not ugly, i’m not gorgeous but i’m atleast conventionally attractive, i had stuff thrown at me it was literally hell. I felt like i was worth as much as a fly on a wall and lost touch with all my friends from my old school and learnt no one at that school was interested in being friends with me it’s a long story so i won’t get into the whole ordeal at that school. I felt so ostracised it wasn’t the place for me at all. From being at that school i felt as though no one really wanted to talk to me, i made a small effort at trying to make friends but everyone seemed so un interested in me, i became a very anxious person i hate talking to people now even though all i want is people to talk to, talking to new people makes me so anxious my brain goes blank i forget how to have a conversation, my voice goes shaky and i get so overwhelmed but i don’t want to be like this at all, i didn’t used to be. I don’t really know what i’m making this post for i guess it being summer and not seeing one friend is getting to me a bit, i have no one to talk to ever except my boyfriend(who is great but i can only see him every two weeks) and my mum and she doesn’t take time out of her day to talk to me much. I just want a friendship, i don’t know how to be myself anymore and i think that’s too why i struggle talking to new people, I don’t know what their personality is like so i don’t know what to say, i’m always worried they will think i’m weird because being at my last school everyone made me feel like such a weirdo.