Why’s everyone obsessed with food

I used to struggle with food a lot during my formative years . I’m 17 now and I really want to let go of that time. It’s really difficult when everything around you talks about how you should consume food.

Recently I could look at food from another perspective. I saw it as a way to connect, to my boyfriend, to his family. I am always so excited about dinners with his family because I get to talk to them and joke at the table, or to goof around with him when eating candy.

Right now I’m staying at his place for a month and yes, I feel safer to eat and to not restrict but then I don’t feel completely comfortable about that, it’s like I’m doing something wrong. Even if he always denies my doubt talks and substitutes them with love, I feel like I’m losing control of what I used to feel when restricting. And that is scary, especially when you feel exposed like that to someone you love.

I just really wished the culture didn’t evolve around that, I really don’t want to know which food is healthy for me, which has less calories and so on. It really messed up with my brain and old habits of that are still lingering.