Still in love with my (33F) ex boyfriend (35M) smh

What am I supposed to do here?

I (33F) invited my favorite ex (35M) to visit me and fuck my brains out in order to help me get over a recent breakup. My most recent relationship was pretty good but completely sexless. The underlying agreement for the weeklong sex fest was that I needed to blow off some steam before I hit the dating scene again so I don’t act like a complete fool with my new Romantic prospects. I have a few dates planned this month and I did not want to act like a sex-starved lunatic.

Emotionally, I’m over my most recent ex. The writing was on the wall for over a year re: the dissolution of our relationship. 35M and I broke up about 4 years ago, and it totally sucked, but we were able to remain friends in the background while we both dated other people.

We broke up due to circumstances out of our control: living in different cities and wanting/ not wanting kids. However, now he’s looking at potentially moving to my city and also (upon further discussion) let me know that his not wanting kids is mostly due to financial worry…..which actually wouldn’t be a problem because (due to a number of unusual circumstances) I am pretty much completely set for life.

When we broke up we were very much in love. I always figured that kind of love never dies, it just synthesizes into emotions for other people, but being together again made me realize I really hadn’t synthesized the emotions into love for the guys I dated after him, I just sort of dissociated myself away from it and dated men who vaguely reminded me of him in various ways.

Spending the week together talking about everything that’s happened in our lives and making love and enjoying one another’s company was the happiest I’ve been in ages (with the exception of getting drunk one night and realizing I’ve basically been settling for placeholders instead of pursuing what I actually want, which made me weep because wtf!!!!!!).

On the other hand, I have had an 9 year long flirtation with another man (34M) with whom I always go out with between boyfriends, but he’s never moved fast enough to lock things down before another man does. He has been pursuing me much more intentionally and intensely after my recent breakup, and has said he is ready to settle down and start a family. I always assumed this man and I would end up together because we are very aligned on many levels re: values/ expectations and the sex has been great and we both come from a similar background.

Basically— how do I proceed? I can’t forget the emotional/ sexual connection I have with 35M now that we’ve discussed about our longing/ pining for one another/ reacquainted ourselves with this immense love left uneroded by time. I also obviously can’t reveal my financial setup to him because that’s crazy. All I know is if he moved here and we rekindled things, kids realistically wouldn’t be off the table because we wouldn’t have to worry about money. However, I’ve also been looking forward to dating 34M for nearly a decade. Both guys are so hot and smart and funny and sweet and great in bed.

Can I synthesize my feelings for 35M towards 34M?
Does that actually work? And if so, how?
Does it pay to explain this situation to either of them?
Do I just need to dissociate myself out of loving this man, again?
Any advice would be appreciated!