IIH and Relationships

I don’t have the energy to say much, but I will say this: IIH really fucks with me cognitively and really fucks with my relationships/friendships. Completely sabotages situations. Which in turn makes me feel like a failure. It’s made me more distant with family. It’s given me a flat affect. Another one bites the dust. Fuck IIH. I have to avoid certain social situations like festivals bc i have heat intolerance and can’t drink. I fucked yo a situation with a guy I was dating bc he thought I was distant and I have trouble be opening about my condition and he’s a go getter and prob thought i was a content loser. Yes I know I’m talking harshly about myself but this is how I feel in this moment. I am angry with IIH.

Fuck the workplace concussion that turned my IIH from “borderline” into full blown. Fuck the fact that my nuero always knew that I was borderline but couldn’t put two and two together when I told her for two entire years that I didn’t feel like myself after my workplace concussion that had me on disability for nearly 3 years and her telling me that maybe it’s just my “new baseline” after my concussion, never mentioning IIH again until I began going blind. I’m also trying not to get burnt out at my current job thanks to IIH. Dealing with this while trying to stay mentally sound is a -- I forgot that word bc of guess what?? IIH.

Fuck everything.

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