How can I stop being such a pick me ?

I noticed something about myself, every time I go out I scan if I see attractive men. I sign up for activities and wonder if Theres men or if they find me attractive. I used to be on tinder only for the male validation with no interest on going on dates. Hanging out with a man that I find attractive or getting male attention is like a drug to me. I’m disgusted by how my brain works . Why can’t I do things for me, to enjoy myself. Why am I so male centered and how do I stop. 😔🫩 I hate this