does anyone else do this ? + quick vent

i’ve always been envious and jealous of pretty girls & i hate that i am. im not even joking, i have multiple girls i literally daydream about being & i do this everyday because i wanna at least experience pretty privilege in my head since ill never have it in real life, wanting to be pretty is the most important thing in the world to me besides financial stability💀 i will sometimes get mad that i don’t fit the beauty standard bc ive seen SO many girls blow up & start making money off of just being pretty (ash kaash for example) and im not mad at them for being pretty cus it’s obviously not their fault, im mad at society for rewarding attractive people just for being attractive while degrading ugly people for existing at the same time. imagine the reason you can afford to go on vacation in any country whenever you want to is because you’re attractive, not hard working or talented, but because you’re pretty. you just look like that & the whole fucking world rewards you for nothing. the way you look quite literally determines how people treat you in life & because of that, i’ll ALWAYS crave the life i’ll never get to live bc im not pretty enough to live life on easy mode. i swear to god, if i had the option to look like a completely different person with my ideal beauty id 10000% do it. i wouldn’t miss this body or face at the fuck all, not even a little bit.