I just wanted to vent, let all these feelings out yk.

Hello there, hope you all are doing good.

I'm a 28 y.o Male FYI

I don't have any prior experience in dating, romantic or intimate relationships. It was choice at first, when i was in my teenage and college days, i didn't want it coz i was spending more time with my fiends, i was happy. As a human, i was interested in sex at that time too, but i saw most people viewing a romantic relationships purely for sexual benefits. I honestly couldn't deal with that, ethics/principles ig.

Well after some years, i wanted to find someone, but my life became a complete mess, i had to deal with a lof of issues regarding my health. But I'm confident in myself, tho my brain say this thought everytime to put me down like "whatever man, you've never had any kind of relation or intimacy ". That'll destroy all my confidence, idk why.

Dating apps are a complete mess here, getting on it feels like I'm entering a war zone wearing only shorts. It really destroy my self esteem. One thing i find interesting is people are finding casuals, even cheating on each other, without no regrets. I just wanted to talk to a woman, that's it talk, watch movies together, maybe a hug. I'll be the happiest person haha. I'm feeling discouraged day by day and my mental health will look like two planet collided with each other 🙂.

I don't know the games, rizz what people call in nowadays. I can't find people in my area like that either, no female friend circle, no mutuals nothing. I kinda thought about simply forget about this a move on but the couples around me, watching some movies, nope it isn't helping me at all.

Tbh I'm tired, like really tired, why I'm still seeking is coz my primary part of brain can't stop thinking about it. Even i can't enjoy my hobbies with a peace of mind. Wish i had a woman to talk to, i looked at random servers to talk to someone, but it's all a mess. I get attached easily now, i wanna stop, i can't stop. I didn't know as a human this would really take a toll on my mental health. I'm honestly scared about being a virgin now.

That's it for today. By the bye 👋 😁