Why should I keep living?

For atleast 4 years I’ve been having depressive episodes. First one was friends all playing together without inviting me. Next one was having no friends in my current school because I had to switch. Next one was having a temporary falling out with my original friends. Next one was getting let go from a volunteer position, getting fired from apple bees, then losing a dear friend of mine as they found me annoying, then smaller falling outs with my original friends again and feeling like they were just friends superficially then I get fired again from another job and now I just want a deep connection. I am at a program and I became friends with a girl but because I just want a true friend she got signals that I liked her. I just wanted a true connection not a romantic partner. If life is like this then what is the point? I have no one, no one has me. I continue to push horizons academic/career wise but my personal life is hell. What if this is all that is store for me?