Need to vent.

I'm not a danger to myself anymore but yesterday I went off the deep end and told my bf and my friend I was gonna eat all my pills and off myself. Nothing bad happened to make me feel that way, I just didn't see the point in living anymore.

Well I passed out and woke up to the cops at my door. My friend called to do a welfare check when I didn't answer my phone.

I'm so embarrassed and have a psych appointment tmr. I don't think there is a magic "don't kill yourself" pill but if they make one let me know.

Gahhhhh, now I have to deal with the repercussions of my actions and it just makes me want to crawl in a hole. I don't know how else to deal with this so I guess I'm posting here.