You are stronger than you know

Today marks 5 days for me.

I'm realizing I'm so much stronger than i knew.

I had been "trying to quit" for over a year.

Every day I had a new reason not to.

Work was just too stressful. My boyfriend and I got in a huge fight. The anxiety just won't go away. I can't sleep. I just want to feel good. I deserve a reward for all my hard work.

It's too hard. I'm too depressed. Too lonely. I can't get through life without help. I'm too weak.

Now 5 days in, I see, I can do it.

I got through yesterday.

And the day before.

And the day before that.

I got through that meeting without it. I survived the fight with my boyfriend without it. I went for a walk and talked to God and calmed my racing thoughts without it. Although this one is the hardest, my body does eventually put itself to sleep on its own when it gets tired enough.

Not to say this isn't probably the hardest thing I've done in my life.

But I'm remembering that I CAN do hard things.

You can do hard things too.

It just takes getting through one moment at a time.