i fear i am a strange person :(

just wanted to midnight vent a bit

applying anesthesia (as with everyone here sorry) and seems like the overwhelming advice i get is to be a normal person lol. i like to think that i am relatively self aware and good at being professional and considerate, and have been told by many other med students who worked with me that i was great to work with (in the sense that i don’t gun or try to take advantage of people to make myself look better). however, i really struggle to reach that “friendship” level of relationship with people, and im now realizing just how far that gets you

with residents and attending, i think i perform decently with mostly honor’s and some HP, but never walked out thinking that i was liked on a friendship level. i think general consensus is that im a hard working and friendly positive student but no one is going to hang out with me as a person lol.

anyways not sure where im going with this. maybe just some stress for interviews with the thought that i might not be a “normal” person getting to my head.