my mothers finally sober but it didn’t fix my “problems”

my biggest problem was my mam constantly being drunk. all the arguments and having a rocky relationship with my mother affected me so bad but she’s sober now and has been for two months. why do i feel lower?? i’ve started cutting again despite being clean for like 4 years from when i was younger. this is genuinely the worst i’ve felt and i don’t even know why i always had something to blame it on.