How Many Times?

How many times will I speak
Of changing
Rearranging
Yet here I am
With the effects of my lost motivation

How many times will I hear
Of needing to change
Being estranged
Yet here we are
With loss of concentration

How many times will I see
People changing
Sacrifice and exchange
And there is everybody
Ripe with dedication

How many times will it take
Until I finally form myself
Not into what is expected
But what is destined
As destiny morphs into its final form
Will I allow it or will I change its course
Yet again