Am i handling my marriage correctly? 28F

I am being a wreck in my marriage, the person who i married i was in love with him for years before getting married we were long distance so i had never lived with him and i dont know how to live with him. ( 29M)

He i feel so many times just dominates me into doing things and i hate it that i do it for my mental peace.
I cant for a second tolerate his mother but i feel like i have to because saying anything i dont feel is correct leads to huge fight.

And i wont blame his mother only, our things were going bad before his mother came to stay with us only and now that she has went back things are not getting better.

I have resentment towards him, i have thought about divorce and its repercussions me ending myself and that repercussion and i am not able to get anything.

If things go smoothly (i ignore thinhs and dont react) it feels good like back in those days when everything was good i react and it is me who is not respecting my ‘pati’

I dont want to even bitch about him i feel guilty of doing so my mother already hates him for how he treated me infront of her that saying anything to her will make her think him of more wrong.

My sisters are busy in life and happy and i dont want them to get stressed for me.

I moved to a city where i have no friends for him. My friends right now are same person who are his friends and if i say anything against it they take his side only. (I have tried expressing once only - i was drunk it turned into a disaster)

Sometimes i feel i should have married someone who loved me i would have been their priority.

How do i handle and make better my marriage?