Does anyone else go a while without an outbreak but when you get one it brings you right back down ?

I’m 22m

I have Herpes 1 and I went about 3 weeks without having anything. Then I woke up today with a big cold sore right on my bottom lip. Whenever it comes back, it immediately kills my confidence and I feel terrible until it’s gone. I’m trying to get to a point where I can be 100% comfortable with it and except that I have this.