i hate being mixed race

im mixed between white and another race that i dont wanna specify because im really embarrassed, i hate all the modern day racism towards the other race that i am and i hate how i feel like i cant fit in with either race because of my appearance because despite me having lighter skin i still ended up getting unlucky with my genetics and having darker eyes and hair of which neither blend well with my skin tone and because of it ive always got a target on my back for people to be racist over it, i can never pass as either one and i cant help but to always feel guilty for how the other race that i am is the one that is subjected to the most racism out of any race, i know race is just a social construct that i shouldnt have to care about but i live in a very racist place with very heavy emphasis on having certain traits to match your ancestry and i feel like people most likely think that im not either race that i actually am and it hurts seeing how i dont fit in and how i always have to get lumped in with negative stereotypes just because i happen to be at least a little bit of that race i know theres a decent amount of posts like this i dont want sympathy or anything it just sucks and i cant help but to feel like people would hate me for my racial background if i didnt either pass as white or altogether not mention my race at all and im so ashamed that despite most of my ancestry coming from a region that should give me lighter traits all around i still ended up with mostly the opposite, i hate having to be seperated and always forced to identify as nonwhite/ a poc even if thats what im atleast half of