I’m still sad about the fact that I didn’t have a happy wedding thanks to my in laws. I feel jealous when I see others share pictures of their happy weddings.

My MIL and SIL were against our marriage since we first got engaged. They didn’t support us at all and insulted us both in arguments many times and created a lot of drama. I didn’t even want them at our wedding but my husband still wanted them there. They even said they didn’t plan on coming at first but in the end they did still show up. My MIL pretended to be happy for us to look good in front of the rest of the family that day but was giving me a dirty look as I walked down the aisle. All the drama they had created leading up to our wedding already had me feeling uncomfortable having them there with their attitudes. I couldn’t even feel happy that day. I just felt so sad and hurt because of how hated I felt. My SIL didn’t even say a word to us that day. I also didn’t love the dress I had but I had no choice because of shipping issues with the other dress I had really wanted.

When my husband and I had our first dance, they didn’t clap. When he had his mother and son dance, my SILs clapped and cheered so loud. We were tight on budget so we booked a photographer for just one hour after our ceremony and my MIL used up pretty much the entire time to take pics of her side of the family with us. As a result, my husband and I only got 2 pictures with each other that day. That’s it. We had also said this would be a no alcohol wedding and they still brought alcohol. My MIL also started requesting songs to the DJ even though I had told her I already had my choice of songs that I wanted to stick to.

Now I just feel so jealous when I see others posting so many beautiful pictures of their wedding and how happy they are because I never got to have that and I never will. And now my SIL is engaged and is getting all the support we never received and that’s also really hurtful to see.