my family is a mess after finding out that my two cousins are in a relationship

i thought i heard her parents wrong.

my cousin (17F) has been in a relationship with our distant cousin (same age as hers) and they weren't even secretive about their affair.

to make matters worse, her parents were actually okay with that.

i talked to her parents few months ago, ang sabi saakin, they were fine w it kaysa naman sa magbulakbol—as if she wasn't already lol.

as if that weren't enough, she even begged her parents for a school transfer just to be with him. the fact that they weren't even financially capable to afford the tuition yet her parents agreed makes me puke.

and now, my family is in chaos. all of them take sides. some says that it's normal for teens to explore and we should just let them, others says it is disgusting and they were blood related.

on top of that, my lolo and lola weren't too happy about the news. pinalayas ang pinsan ko, and i found out that they were living together for a couple of weeks (not quite sure kung kailan, pero kadiri pa rin)

i am soooo disgusted 😭😭😭 we were so close before, halos tabi matulog at magkasamang gumala, and we usually do our hobbies together. she told me that she looks up to me, and admire my mentality. it's just soooo disappointing na makita sya with a wrong path.

i cant even look at her without feeling the disappointment 😞 i tried to understand her pero hindi ko talaga kaya.

oh, i don't personally know the guy since distant cousin nga and hindi naman ako out going na tao, kaya hindi ko rin makausap.

iyon lang, i just want this off my chest, kapag kasi kinakausap nya ako nagi-guilty ako dahil hindi ko sya masyadong pinapansin. she greeted me a happy birthday on my birthday pero i didn't thanked her and just walked into my room, i can see that she was hurt kaya umalis din after akong batiin—naguilty ako afterwards, siguro I'll just work on myself. i will tried to be more welcoming kapag nandyan sya.

yun langz, thanks...