I think I reached my limit

I'm just numb. I can't even begin to describe how lonely I feel. I've never felt it like this before. I'm surrounded by people and I feel trapped because nobody sees me. I'm just a mendatory participant. I finally recognised that I've never been loved, never been truly seen. The only reason why anybody ever stayed is because I cling on for dear life, adjusted, changed, but they don't care if I live or don't. I've got no friends who truly worry or even think about me. I am on my own, and I have no hope for the future, that there will be anybody who feels like real family, or any place that feels like home, ever again. I'm losing it.