Is my 'concern' justified?

I see many people in bi/gay subs talking about using dildos or eating their own cum for example, I'm bicurious so I would like to try sometime.

However, I'm thinking that if I try all of these things myself, that it will be way less special when trying it with another man.

Like if another guy cums in your mouth the first time, it'll be less special because you've already came in your own mouth many times, or when u take a dick for the first time, it'll be less special because you've already used dildos anally.

Maybe 'concern' is a big word, but is my thought process justified? Because I would like to try these things, but would also like the first time I try these things with another man to be and feel very special.