SKL May Crush ako sa Former Instructor ko

Around 2024 nung lumipat sya sa pinapasukan kong univ. at first hindi ko sya pinagtutuunan ng pansin, parang hangin lang sya sa paningin ko pero eveytime naman na makakasalubong ko sya I greet him. Fast forward, nagkaroon sya ng mataaa na posisyon sa college dept. namin and nakita ko sa schedule ko na magiging instructor ko sya sa isa kong sub. honestly, sa lahat ng prof/instructor na na encounter ko sa kanya ako natatakot. He have this authority kasi na parang pag tinignan mo tatarayan ka nya or worst papagalitan ka nya if you do something wrong, but he proves me wrong among my instructors/professors isa sya sa pinakamabait, as in pag nagagalit sua hindi nakakatakot, parang pinagsasabihan lang kayo. Tuwang tuwa ako sa kanya, he's funny and may sense of humor. And I know the first time he walk in, he's gay? hahahaha. Describe ko sya Chinito, Mestizo, around 5'7 or 5'8 height nya and he's a dance coach and adviser.

Fast forward, I was on my third year may subject ulit kami sa kanya pero I don't develop crush pa sa kanya kasi I am focused sa girl crush ko ( pansexual here). I'm able to know him more, he's cute when he's shy (nashshy sya sometimes and I find it cute everytime na nahihiya sya) and he's friendly, and good at dancing. Madalas syang nagjojoke samin and I think our section is one of his closest, but he always remembering us the word boundaries, because one time may sinabi classmate ko and tumatak sya sa isipan nya. Nanonotice nya ako sometimes and I think he knows me naman.

So this year lang January 2026, wala na kaming subject sa kanya and one time he appears in my dream it's so random kaya nagtaka ako. Hindi ko sya iniisip ( why would i?!) kaya simula nun nacurious na ako about him, and yun nga I saw him wearing polo and he's so handsome I'm not joking. And by that, nagsimula na talaga nyang sakupin ang isip ko everyday. And my classmates know it too, one time sya ang nagbantay samin and my classmates teasing me, so I know from that alam na nya, may moment na lumapit sya sakin para siguro pang asar ba then umalis sya at lumapit uli naasar ako na ewan hahahahaha pero I don't put meaning to that ha. I don't want to romanticize everything.

Sa ngayon, one of my friend say "naiilang na para ang sir e" kasi he knows, I know he knows and dedma na lang sa kanya yun, and it's okay because it's gave me kilabot din hehe. Pero guys huhu, hindi na ako maka greet sa kanya everytime I saw him kasi natakbo ako or sobrang iwas hahahha feeling ko kasi everytime na malapit sya bigla akong mahihimatay or hindi makahinga e.