[B4T] I'm in love with my own son

**I know what it sounds like. I know it's gross. But I love him so much and I don't know what to do with that. Maybe it couldn't be helped, after this last year.

Ever since my wife died, he was the only one to stay by my side. He dropped out of college, found a job, worked himself to the bone just to take care of me while I rotted away in bed. Not caring, not talking, not even knowing what day it was. I'm ashamed to admit I hated him for that at first. I just wanted everything to stop, everyone to leave me alone, to let me starve to death. He didn't let me. Even when I screamed at him, even when I treated him like shit, he kept caring for me. Eventually, I just accepted he would never leave me alone. It didn't take long for me to get used to that kind of life after that. He worked, cooked and cleaned. I slept. I wasn't happy, but I wasn't angry anymore.

I don't know when it was that I fell in love with him. Maybe when he started sleeping with me to stop the nightmares. Maybe when he got me out of bed for the first time. Maybe when I looked at him and realized, for the first time, all the things he'd given up on for me. How could I not love him for that? How could I stop the sudden warmth I felt in my chest looking at my own son?

**Believe me, I was disgusted by it as well. I never groomed him, I never looked at him that way. I never wanted this. I felt so gross whenever I looked at him and my heart throbbed, whenever he hugged me and my dick, too, throbbed. I might have been able to deal with it if it was just love, but I just kept getting hard whenever he got a bit too close. We'd sleep together and I'd wake up with a raging boner. He'd go to work and I'd jerk off and cry. I tried to hide it, to convince myself I was just confused, but the more I tried to run away from it the more everything hurt. I was spiraling, I was in the precipice of losing everything yet again.

I'm going crazy. I'm a fucking creep to my own son. He deserves a real father, and I can't be that for him. So I decided I'd tell him. Tonight. I won't lie, some part of me is hoping for him to feel the same. For him to kiss me, to touch my body. Obviously, that's not happening. He'll just see me for what I am and walk away, forever. And that's the best thing he could do. Even if it destroys me.**

So that's the general gist of it, a father who is in love with his son! I want to explore the father's feelings as this is the first time he's realizing he's bisexual. While his relationship with his wife was very vanilla and he was happy with that, as he builds a new relationship with his son he realizes he has very different feelings regarding men. Whether these are his natural feelings or the son kind of manipulating him into it or a combination of the both, things get more and more depraved over time. I want the inverse power dynamic to be at the core of the relationship, which will be very sexually charged. That said, this won't be just sex for either of them, as they are genuinely in love. Sex is just their preferred way of expressing that love.

I'm usually into guys bigger than me, so buff men and bears are prefered. That being said, I am open to other body types, except maybe twinks. As for my character, I don't care too much what he looks like as long as he's smaller than yours, so feel free to share your type if you want me to play as that!

Regarding my kinks, I'm really into straight to gay, praise, degradation, name calling, recording, armpits, musk, spit, size difference, face fucking, hair pulling, sweat, barebeck, condom to bare, stealthing, fully/partially clothed sex, cockwarming, cheating, watersports, risky sex, SPH, chastity and collars. Also, I love being called a good girl sometimes. I'm pretty accepting of most kinks, my hard limits being diapers, underage, sounding, scat, vomit, CBT and anything gore-related.

I am aware that some of my kinks are kind of out there, but rest assured, none of them are a requirement. If you are interested in the plot and we only have some kinks in common, do not be afraid to bring it up and I will keep that in mind.

Please try to be somewhat literate. I try not to be too demanding because English isn't my first language so I understand not being able to fully express what you want. However, if you constantly answer with one liners, or roll with my actions without adding anything of substance, I will end up ignoring you. Also, we all have a life so I won't expect you to answer instantly or to be available every single day. Please, try to be equally patient.

I roleplay mostly on reddit, but I'm also open to using Discord. Please, don't open the conversation by starting the roleplay already, as I prefer to discuss the plot and characters beforehand. Any ideas you might want to add are welcome, and sharing them in your opening message is encouraged (as stated above).