Self realization as a paypig

My domme had her first sex with her boyfriend, and it gave me the realization of my inferiority. I never wanted to have sex with my domme, but I had a meltdown when I saw the girl whom I have worshipped for years, gave her most of my earnings, all my savings and helped her become rich, getting fucked by a guy whom she met few months ago. Her boyfriend laughed on me on facetime, passed orders on me, and called me loser.

It breaks you as a man, seeing the goddess of your life getting dominated by someone who never worked hard for her like you, sacrificed or invested his time and money to get her. Some guys are really born to win in life while others live as losers forever. All this time, I was working hard for his future girl.

I guess we all paypigs are just working hard for our dommes to settle down with a real man who wins her heart. And we paypigs will accept him as our king because he is your domme's choice.

Hence being a paypig is very unmanly and sub human way to live life.