Do you feel my sadness is justified, or am I being selfish?

My father, may God grant him a long and blessed life, never neglected us, even when his financial situation was difficult He provided for us and never let us feel deprived

Anyway recently I started working part-time while studying to save money and start my own busines The job is exhausting, sometimes up to 15 hours a day I even stopped buying makeup, perfumes, and abayas to save every penny

The problem is that every time I save up, he asks me for a large loan I give it to him because my father used to give me back some of it, but now he doesn't give me back anything What bothers me most is that the money goes towards things I don't consider necessary, like gifts and fruit for his friends, or he sends it to unemployed relatives

If my mother hints to him about my money he says my daughter is generous and doesn't mind because she takes after me Once, when I asked for my money, he said that what I've spent on him throughout my life is more than what I've saved Since then, I've been too embarrassed to even bring it up with him. Regarding the topic

I have no problem standing by my father, but it hurts me to see years of hard work go to waste, and every time my project dream gets postponed I even started telling him I don't have that amount of money so he wouldn't ask for it

I don't know what to do. If I bring up my feelings, he makes me feel guilty, saying, "After all he's done, I shouldn't hold onto it." If I don't bring it up, it's never mentioned again. Last time, two years of my savings went

+ he takes loan from my brother and mom as well but never returns it, sometimes my brother is broke mid month and goes to his friends for patrol expenses