I'm turning 19 tomorrow and I don't know what to do with my life...

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Hi everyone. I'm a guy from a small town in Brazil, and tomorrow I'm turning 19. Lately I've been feeling really frustrated with myself.

I always dreamed about working with art, being an actor to be more specific. I already acted in a few short films and small projects, but nothing big. The problem is that I live in a small town and there are basically no opportunities here.

It's been 2 years since I finished high school, and since then I fell into depression. I'm also gay, and my family is very homophobic.

I never really connected with anyone in my family. I always wanted to leave home and chase my dream, but at some point in my life I became convinced that I would die before turning 18, so I just stopped trying. Now I'm turning 19 tomorrow, and I feel like I'll never reach my goals.

I feel lost. I wish someone could hold my hand and tell me what I should do. I know I'm alone in this, and I don't think my family would support me no matter what.

I just want to know what I should do. I don't know if any of you have ever felt like this. I really love acting, and I truly think I'm good at it. My friends always told me I would be a great actor, but somehow my brain decided a long time ago that it would never happen.

Now I'm here, with nowhere to go. I'm scared that I'm already too old to start acting, and I'm also scared that maybe I could never build a stable career.

I wish things could happen faster, but at the same time I can't make myself go after my dream. What should I do? How can I actually start chasing it?

Btw guys I'm not in danger or anything like that, I just feel really lost and don't know what to do with my life.