Those who’ve gotten weed induced dpdr, did you have a bad high?

This seems to be the most common way of getting weed induced dpdr, since it’s a traumatic experience and all, which dpdr feeds on. But I’ve seen some on this sub say they’ve had a pleasant high but developed dpdr regardless. I guess this happened to me two weeks ago.

I remember smoking weed around 8 years ago, had a bad high, but woke up the next morning fine. Smoked weed a couple times after that with okay highs. but one day I hit a pen with no panic attacks, but woke up the next morning derealized to shit. Went away two weeks later, overnight somehow. Well I’ve experienced derealization two more times after that, triggered by a panic attack and SSRIs withdrawals respectively. Second one went away overnight too after a month and the third one took 6 months to gradually lift. Because of these experiences I developed a ptsd response to the smell of weed which I’ve been trying to get over.

Well 2 weeks ago, I got hotboxed in a room full of people hitting their pens. Well since I’ve been trying to get over my ptsd, I tried to stick this out. I tried my best to fan the aerosol away from me, and had a good time. I didn’t feel get high, not then or the rest of that night. Well the next morning, after 10 minutes of being awake, I felt my chest get heavy and then I was back. Over the next 8 days, it slowly got worse with moments of lucidity gradually going away. I’m disoriented, motion sick all the time, and most of scared to shit that this might be the one that finally sticks. I had one chance 8 years ago to avoid weed, which I avoided with overly paranoid certainty, only to accidentally get high. I’m pissed that I let myself stay in that room and I’m terrified thanks won’t end this time. It’s been consistent and non fluctuating. Constantly disoriented when looking at pictures and mirrors. ☹️