I feel indifferent

I have not seen his face in 3 months and I forgot what he looked like. I logged into my old snap and looked at our pictures together and realized I feel indifferent. 3 months ago those pictures would have broke me down. The difference between secure/anxious individuals and Avoidants is that we feel our emotions immediately and they let theirs build beneath the surface. I loved you so deeply and I still do, but I lack the respect I once had for you. I genuinely want you to do well, but I hope through pictures are the only place I ever see you again.