Hopelessness

I seem to have ruined my life with alcohol and drugs already. I'm severely mentally ill and needed my therapy but it got paused because the drug issue became too serious. I tried to die twice this month and I can't seem to recover from that. I'm over 2 weeks sober and it doesn't helo at all.

I don't believe there's anything worth saving anymore I'm an empty shell of who I once was, I'm nothing but an addict anymore theres not even a spark left of the personality I used to have.

I don't know whats the point of staying sober if I really don't want to keep on living