I don’t know why I’m so inclined.

I don’t know why I’m so inclined to give people nude photos and videos of myself when they ask me, I’m f21 and I’m talking to this girl rn, she’s very beautiful and kind but she uses me only for her own pleasure, it’s like mentally I’m not feeling feeling anything, I’m numb to it. Even if at some points it gives me unease, i don’t think i can stop ..?