Scared i’ll never find my people as an exmuslim somali girlie

I grew up with big somali friends groups but as i’ve gotten older it’s fizzled out i’m 18 now i have only white friends now and ive just been thinking it’s just not the same don’t get me wrong i love my friends but i miss having friends who understand my culture and i can speak to in somali im tired of getting asked why my family has such weird standards ig or other things only somalis would understand etc i am acquaintances with alot of races but its not the same as a friendship and every time i tried to become friends with a somali girl i realize really quickly they just got a diff haram scale than me or they judge me for not wearing the hijab full time n ive only really met more chill ones online :/ i was wondering if any of you felt this way and how have you dealt with it i feel soo lonely all the time