I’m a bit embarrassed

I’ve spent so much money, to the amount of my rent, on onlyfans and paying for their PPV videos this past week. I’d be watching and messaging them over working. Went home during the work day to jerk off and watch a video with my full attention. I think I just liked the attention even if it was just a predatory OF management team talking to me. Just liked the attention I guess. I have to pay rent today so in a bit of a hole but I’ll def stop now. Until I need attention again I guess.