Weak Personality Issue

In the first few years of my life I was a spoiled kid , I was my parents only son and was treated like that, wasn’t allowed to go out n play with kids my age as my parents were too worried that any harm would reach me , I used to spend time mostly watching tv cartoons , not interacting much with the outside world which I assume weakened my personality.

Sometimes I used to leave my house without permission to play outside but they always saw me as “Mamas Boy” that no one wanted to play with. Some even used to chase me out to make me go away or scare me. Some used to be friendly with me just to get advantage of the money I used to bring to buy snacks.

I think this gave me a trauma from the outside world and made me weak inside and get scammed or lied to easily therefore in elementary school I had no friends.

In middle school in any argument or fight I used to instantly cry for no reason just cause I never had any experience on any of this before like I haven’t been raised to fight back.

In high school I started taking my own decisions and doing whatever I wanted to do without any permission from my parents. I got multiple friends and it’s like my life has changed completely but still had the emotion control problem it became better like I could reply back to people but still couldn’t be rough to whoever was rough with me. whenever anything like a fight or an argument happen I immediately get up and leave.

I struggled a lot with this but I never showed my weakness to anyone and always kept a straight face in every argument i went through in high school

Now am in a uni. I think what I went through made me struggle back then, Now I consider myself as a calm friendly person that hates no one and stays away from any arguments or fights, but I believe am a completely different person to what I was not with reference to age maturity but as a person in general am happy to be who I am and I believe what I went through made me like that but still struggle with my emotions control till now

And idk why but before high school I had it so normal and easy to interact with females but ever since I changed my mind set everything changed like I can barely make a conversation or ask a question to them no idea if this had a relation with my past but it’s a problem am REALLY FACING RN

It’s like I had a trauma from males and now I have it from females

Let me know ur opinions