Feeling invalid because of my penis

I know it's a silly thing to think...but I just can't help it. I feel the damn thing every minute of every day and it's made me doubt that I even am trans even though I know that I am...it's a constant mental and physical battle, not even including my other dysphoria. I feel like such a failure of a trans girl and so invalid because of it...I can't get hurt or any kind of surgery yet so I'm just stuck with it for now. Sorry...I just had to get that out