I’m going to rehab.

I’ve accepted that I need help. I’m a chronic relapser and have tried quitting for so long. I’m tired of this toxic cycle. Tired of not having any kind of control. Tired of hurting myself and people that I care about. Tired of making horrible decisions. Tired of being sick and tired. I quit my job so I can just focus on getting better. I enjoyed my job but couldn’t get the time away I needed and understand I can’t even be a good employee right now when I’m so down in the dumps. I almost decided to just run away and be homeless. Im really scared. And anxious. But im checking myself into rehab in the next few days. It’s time I get help and accept I can’t do it by myself. Wish me luck. I’m at rock bottom and am willing to do anything to get out of this his hell.