Don’t want to do this anymore:,(

Been trying to taper and it’s incredibly hard. I only ever buy enough to where I’ll have 6 drinks or so tops, a night although it’s certainly been more some nights. I’ll say “I’m only going to have 4, or 3, then have all 6 😭 But after a certain amount of hours not drinking I feel like I’m going to have a panic attack. I’m a 27 y/o f, and in the past, I’ve drank SO much every day and never experienced panic attacks when I didn’t. I know it gets worse as you age and the more times you’ve given it up and then drink again. I’m just scared man. Can’t wait to be on the other side of this. Don’t wish this on anyone