having a panic attack

let me just let you know right now, there is no actual issue or misunderstanding. I'm just freaking out and have no where to go but reddit. IF YOU'RE NOT ON BOOK THREE YET DON'T READ.

i had posted on here after finishing the first book, and was given the advice that with no one to talk to about these books in my day to day, if I wanted to discuss them, I should try reminding readers of the beginning parts and take them on a trip down memory lane. this is sorta me doing that.

Jason just woke up in Killian's/Lamprey's? special room with the supression collar. What the fucking fuck. I know our boy is fine, I know there are twelve other books and Jason is definitely the main MC in them, so no Jason death today. That's enough to keep me from tears, but the sheer panic.

I'm about to pile through it, so I probably won't reply until I am if anyone even decides to answer, but jfc does Jason give anyone else heart palpatations every book? yeah i know, that's probably the point, and I just have to keep reading.

how did you feel when this happened?