Just ran into a quant guy who raped me 2 years ago

I ran into a quant guy who raped me 2 years ago today at infront of movement climbing gym in LIC New York.
As I was heading out I heard loud noise of Chinese couple having argument in mandarin. It was so loud I turned my head around to find the guy who raped me having argument with his supposedly girlfriend.
2 years ago on July in NJ
I was raped by a guy who lived in my neighborhood at his apartment.
This happened so abruptly and quickly I didn’t know how to react and regret not taking this to police at that time.
Later I brought this up on my social media and he used this as a reason to file lawsuit against me.
I was on the verge of suicide already last year but him filing lawsuit made me more depressed
Thankly I had to just finish the program and it’ll be dismissed
But later I found out through this friends from PhD that he always has been horrible to girls through out in his 20s
He kept a lot of things in secret from me and later I realized I barely know anything about me.
The fact that he raped me thinking there were no consultancies made me so enraged.
He later got fired from his first actual job which was from hedge fund Two sigma in New York
After I saw him today i suddenly had hard time breathing and heart beating way too fast and almost cried so i had to really take a moment to breathe

Looking back I blame myself a lot naively disregarding how a person can be so evil to the extent that’s beyond my limit of understanding.