How can god still love me after everything I've done?

I just prayed after watching porn (I've watched it for a few days straight now) and I was saying how much i was annoyed of everything, hating myself & things that I've done in the past etc

First of all I just feel like a weirdo saying I'm gonna stop and then next day I see some stuff and lusting then leads me to watching it

Also just feels like there's no hope at all in the future if I just keep carrying on with what I'm doing, I'm aware of what I'm doing is wrong but my body and mind is telling me otherwise that I have to do it to take off stress

Ik you've probably seen these posts like a million times and I'm sorry that I'm another one but I'm a mess, so i just thought I'd get the things I've been feeling this past week off my chest