I cried in bed this morning

Need to vent and put this out there to people who might understand.

This morning, I (31M) lay in bed crying as my 2yo son cried next to me because daddy couldn't get up and come play in the lounge.

I was diagnosed 2 months ago, after experiencing pain, blood and other digestive issues for several years. I'm on budesonide for one more month to reduce the inflammation, then hopefully starting some more Crohn's focused medication. I don't feel like it's gotten better, in some cases I feel like I've gone backwards.

It's hard to explain to my child why I can't get out of bed sometimes. I hate that I can't always be what he wants, I hate that this is life-long and will always be an issue now and then. I feel useless.

I'm just so frustrated and tired.