AITA for not giving up on my smut when my bf is uncomfortable?

My (F25) boyfriend (M20) of a year and a half doesnt feel comfortable with my writing. I have since a young age found an escape in text role play. (Yes that cringe He kisses her hand stuff.) And as the years went by it has grown with me. And at 25 the Rp is mostly now smut. When we got togheter i made it clear that it was a thing i was doing with random people and assured him I have never met these people and never will. Most i only know as a username on a social media profile. And informed him its something i wish to keep doing and that its important to me. It has reecently come up, after he was invited to a text server where i am doing some of these stories, that he is uncomfortable not being able to read all of them. (Some are locked due to the rp partners boundaries) He has previously been cheated on and overthinks this a lot, however, i have never shown any signs of it. And i wont. Ever. He is the man of my dreams, the man i see myself with when we are 80 years old. We have a long distance relationship, but see eachother for 2-5 weeks a year and talk every day over calls, (maybe too much, lol) and we even sleep call toghter. I want to spend my life with him. I am just struggling to find how i will handle it. He is uncomfortable not being able to see what we write, and the other person is uncomfortable being watched as they share their most vulnerable sides. The rp has never been anything i have an emotional connection to. Its just like reading smut, but its yet to be written. And he as well does these rp's with some people. And i dont check all he does. We have done and do these toghter as well and he hasnt hsd any problems with previous texts when i have made them into documents.

This is where i am stuck. I understand that it can make him uncomfortable, yet i feel like maybe i deserve some trust? I dont know if i sound like a total asshole right now. So, i guess i am asking the people of reddit.