To Jordan (JTC)

Don’t lose yourself too deeply in the illusion you’ve created. It’s been almost 3 months now, but don’t tell me you’ve forgotten. You aren’t the only one out there who knows the truth anymore, remember? You tried to correct my use of the word “justice” once. But now we both know justice is exactly what’s in store. For you, for me, for her. Will you be steamrolled by what the universe has in store for you? Or, for the first time in your life, will you look into that mirror, take your life into your own hands, and work WITH the universe to decide what this next unfolding of events looks like? You can run from what you’ve done but you cannot hide. And, you do not need to be right to be worthy of grace and good things. You do not even need to be good to be worthy of grace and good things. You just need to be honest. I am finally qualified to preach these things, I’ve walked the walk, and so I say this with the utmost gravity because I know where you’re headed. And fuck what I once invested in us; I invested too much faith in YOU, Jordan, your own entity, to have simply lost it completely due to that last big offense even if it was what finally led me to walk away and freed me from a prison of my own making. This isn’t about me. The universe hasn’t decided if you’re a lost cause yet. You are still actively deciding that you are. Even if we never speak again, as appears to likely be the case, I’m inclined to stand with the universe on this one. If that ever stops being the case, I trust I’ll feel it in my (albeit, defective) gut. But that hasn’t happened yet. So. Do you feel that false foundation of yours wobbling under your feet yet? What will you do now?