For me it wouldn’t necessarily be the deciding factor in how I feel about myself

Yes I will have them. And yes I’m one of those that almost every single day look back at our conservations when we were getting to know each other . And compliments and how you have seen things with me that people through out my life have (and again I will always give that credit to my mom) I wish she could live forever, and of course that there was such thing too . I’m extremely and so unbearably grateful that when we met that’s one of the first things you recognized within me and even through our relationship. I know there have been things I’ve done that haven’t met up to that and matched with that because those times are simply not at all who I am. And of course I will always regret those realizing and things that have been brought to my attention that again no one can ever change my feelings , impression and what I choose to feel deeply with you.

Again it’s almost like it is just natural for me , I can’t get to prove or be something I’ve never been and simply aren’t idk. But just like I’ve wanted to be that for you , idk how at all I mean I do but with how I know I tend to over explain and very hard at times for me to put things into a brief context cause I know you’re not comfortable at times with long explanations or depths and that’s understandable. But one thing that has to this very day that I look back on sometimes is how you said to me “I think you’re amazing and beautiful and hope to take you out to dinner one day” and “I myself find someone being like they are like god made them is beautiful and you are that” telling me how beautiful I am more than once all in the same day , and not that I need that all the time but from you that one time and how you said it how it felt there have been times where I myself have come over the fact that I can be happy and content with how I am and I don’t have to look a certain way to be accepted of attracted to you.

To this day it just has always stuck and stayed with me that I’m just very glad that you’ve recognized and noticed things that I’m glad that a lot of women nowadays don’t keep or don’t try to be and not be has they want to keep that one person. Again, since you I never though I would ever want to be this open with and how you’ve continuously made me feel and like I don’t have to pretend to look like or be someone I’m not for you to like me or love me at all , idk.