I want to feel gender dysphoria again

I’ve been identifying as trans for about a year and a half. There’s been signs for a lot of my life bus recently I haven’t felt dysphoria in a while and I actually kind of miss it. To me, it was a sign that I knew that what I wanted and who I wanted to be was right, of course it was still damaging and made me feel sick but at least it helped me understand more and made the feeling of imposter syndrome more bearable.
Without my gender dysphoria I feel like anything I do is pointless because I feel like I’ll never be happy no matter who I am.