Just blocked my dad. Not feeling great.

If you've seen my other post on here you'll get why I've decided to do this in a lot more detail lol

ERM so basically i havent spoken to my dad in about 6 months or something like that? He still sends me messages every like 4-5 weeks to say something random but i havent texed back, and he knows i dont want to talk to him. Ive made the decision to finally block him.

It feels like its final, that ive officially not got a dad anymore and it really really hurts. I know its the best thing for me since he abused my mum, cheated on her, is a raging alchoholic and ofc mentally abusive to me.

It hurt to stop talking to him, and this feels like another stage of this. Tomorrow im seeing my grandparents (their taking me to an orthodontist appointment) and i have a feeling if my dad cries to them that ive blocked him im going to get an earful (like i do everytime, they do not approve of me cutting my dad off)

I have a feeling that at some point they will force me to talk to him. they've already attempted to do this many times but i have a feeling they're gonna try and do this again on a larger scale. like in real life.

so yeah v nervous. ok bye love you