Grief after abortion

I’m 22 and made the choice to have an abortion but I have an overwhelming feeling of guilt and grief since.

I also had an abortion when I was 17 and I think because I was much earlier on in the pregnancy at the time and my situation at the time also it made it easier.

Deep down I know it was the right decision as i would be by myself raising a child, when im not mentally in a great place myself, living at home etc but i can’t help but think about the what ifs?

I am pro choice and feel a bit silly for feeling this way when it was my choice. Has anyone else had this ?