Not sure if I can keep doing this

I’ve been working in this field for nearly 2 years now, and currently working at my second clinic. Someone please tell me if any of this is normal, because I don’t remember feeling this lost at my previous clinic.

To start off with, I hate that I don’t receive individual training for every client. I hate that the only information I receive on a client is some basic information that is typically outdated. It’s so exhausting. I feel like I barely know what I’m doing sometimes. I hate that some of these high behavior clients have BCBAs that are remote only, and therefore never see the extent of the client’s behaviors. Tell me why this client only has a BIP for aggression when their actual problem behaviors such as elopement, flopping, and task refusal don’t have a BIP? Why do some of these clients have so many DTT targets when they have great difficulty with attending? I don’t understand why they’re pushing for some clients to be school-ready when they are nowhere near at that skill level. I’m sorry if any of what I said sounds rude and judgmental. I’m just so frustrated with the environment and ABA in general, but I’ve only been RBT certified for less than a week, so what do I know?