Advice

Last night I finally got to go out with friends, outside rave. I was very open about it with my bf. He told me to not wear a lace top with a bra under it bc he was uncomfortable. First, I wanted to listen. Then I got in my head, and then all of my friends told me that he treats me like shit on the daily and I should just have this one thing. So wtv I did and then today I went to his house and I mentioned it ig so he caught me. He told me that now we arent going to the mall or the fair, and there’s consequences.

I took accountability for lying. But why am I being punished and given consequences? Constantly for the past few months it feels like I do anything and he wants to punish me. I usually never lie, I put in effort, I’m very patient, don’t hide things and basically do everything for him.

Idk if I’m being dramatic but it just feels like intentional abuse. I plan on leaving him once he pays half of next months rent. But see how to cope this rn. I’m pregnant, spiraling, he makes me feel worthless and like I don’t matter.

And it hurts me even more to know that my poor baby is feeling all of it. I’m also so emotional with my Horomones so I feel like a crybaby.